The grind takes many forms

As I labor away at this site, adding all 200 games, writing articles, and trying to balance this monumental task alone, with only my dog to keep me sane (and that’s an entire blog post if I wanted to), I reflect on how much my stream means to me, my mental health, and my general positive mindset.

This is going to be a great thing when it’s finished. Not only because I’ve never had my own website before, but because it will give fans of the AVGN Trials a place to track my progress, to see what might be coming next, and to even see my thoughts as I go, buy merch, or what have you. But it has been a complete and utter sponge of my attention, and as I type this, just having finished entry #115 (85 to go, 5 days in!), I miss the stream. I miss my routine.

2020 and 2021 (so far) have been trying years, and all I need to say is that I realize now how amazing streaming has been to help me pull through this. Seeing the fine folks come in, sometimes just to say hi, or perhaps to hang out for the entire stream, has been such a blessing. I cannot describe how lucky I feel. I could fire up right now, spontaneous and unplanned, and folks would come out. I would’ve killed for this in 2016 when I was first starting out.

I just wanted to say how fortunate I feel, and how much I can’t wait to get back to the trials and streaming. Despite the slightly dark place I am in right this moment, I feel like the luckiest person on Twitch!

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